It's my hope to post entries here about my life and experiences as a trans-woman who also happens to have bipolar disorder. This is my way of making my voice be heard, and bringing attention to the issues that myself and others like me, face every day.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Thing Are Improving

Things are doing much better with work for me now. We had new smaller store open up in the mall that’s going to turn into the toy store next month, and at first I thought I’d try working both stores for the extra hours. I ended up having to choose one or the other. I ran into some trouble from my manager at the store I was hired at over it. I got pulled aside twice within a week to be talked to over it and I still wasn’t getting enough hours, so I decided that would transfer to the other store. I was starting to hate my job for a while, but switching stores has been a big help.

Since it’s a smaller store we have fewer people on staff, which means the hours get spread out more evenly. I love it there. The schedule is made out 2 weeks ahead of time, so I’m not having to deal with calling in on Sundays to hopefully get the correct answer to when I come in next. I’m getting much better hours, I can count on at least 4 days a week now, if not more since Halloween is getting closer. I like the people I work with and they’re fun to be around. I’m hoping that I get held over for the toy store. I found a job that I enjoy; so the longer I can keep it the better.

On top of that Stef and I are spending less money on gas thanks to the new car. It costs around half as much to fill it up than the jeep did. Things are going pretty well for now, I don’t have many complaints. With any luck things will keep getting better.

I’ve come a long way since that night back in March when I was thrown out. I haven’t forgotten, nor have I forgiven, the way I was treated. As promised, I have succeeded in spite of those who stabbed me in the back. I have, and will continue, to prove to my family that I am more than they give me credit for. If I still sound bitter, it’s because I am, I make no secret of it. I’m trying to let it go, but it’s going to be a long time coming.

Stef and I have been together for almost a year now. It will be on the 31st. I can honestly say I wouldn’t be where I am now without her. She was there to get me when I had no place to live; she found us a place to live and paid the rent for months until I found a job. She pushed me to not give up in my job search even though it took so long. She takes me to work and picks me up when I get off, and I can always count on her to be there for me no matter what. I can’t ask for better. It’s been a rough year for us both, but I’m hoping that the next one will prove to be even better. I love her, and I’d be lost without her.

Sunday, October 2, 2011

New Stuff

So on Friday not long before I got off work, Stef texted me to say that she had a flat tire. This wouldn't be so bad if not for the fact that she didn't have a spare, or the key to get the lug nut lock off. The lock issue had been a problem for a while, and we were going to try to fix it soon by breaking it off. She tried that, but for some reason it didn't work. It was too late in the day on Friday to get it anywhere to get things fixed, so I hung around the mall an extra 3 hours before her and her mom came and picked me up. We ended up spending the night at her mom's house.

Yesterday morning we all get up and run down to an auto parts store to see about getting a patch kit and a bit that would grip the key well enough to break it. We got everything we needed and went to work on things. We got the tire all patched up and it was holding air, but then we found out that the valve stem was leaking. Somehow or another we got it to hold, but didn't trust it to make it very far on the road. We didn't even bother to try to break off the lock. Something came up that we'd been talking about for quite a while, getting a new car.

So instead of putting anymore time and money into the jeep, we decided to look into getting a used car. If it wasn't for her mom things would have gone so much worse this weekend for us. We rode around to a few different dealers trying to find something with a good price and good gas mileage. Gas is what's been hurting us the most, so that was a big thing for us. We looked a few different cars, but the last place we came to was a car max.

We went in hoping to look at a specific car, but ended up checking out several others that looked good too. Luckily we had a really good salesman that didn't try to bullshit us about a lot of things. We had it down by the end to a 2006 saturn ion, or a 2007 ford focus. Both were overall good cars, but in the end we settled on the saturn. Thankfully her mom co signed for her and she got a good monthly payment. We all think it was a good deal, it was just under 12k and has a little under 50 thousand miles on it. It looks practically brand new, has a huge trunk, and suicide doors.

Her mom is really what made it happen, and if it wasn't for her we'd still be stuck with the same old problems. So right now with what we save in gas every month, we should be able to afford the car payments. I'm hopefully going to be getting a bit better hours at work from now on, so as long as I keep bringing in about the same each month as I am now we should be ok. Just the fact that we won't have to sink so much money into getting things fixed and replaced all the time will be the biggest help.

After today she also has a credit history, so that will be a big help once we can afford to look for an apartment. I just need a full time job before that happens, but that's a story for another day. We just got home earlier tonight, and I'm just glad to be able to change clothes, take a shower, and lay in our own bed. We'll figure out what to do about the jeep later, but for now we need a days rest after all that.