It's my hope to post entries here about my life and experiences as a trans-woman who also happens to have bipolar disorder. This is my way of making my voice be heard, and bringing attention to the issues that myself and others like me, face every day.

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Thanksgiving and Such

I spent Thanksgiving with Stef last week, which went pretty well, all things considered. We had dinner with both sides of her family, so we got to eat 2 times that day, both within 2 hours of each other. Needless to say, I didn't go hungry. Her dad's was probably the most interesting one, interesting in the sense that I could tell our mere presence made people uncomfortable. Her grandma was really the only person that tried to be nice to us, and her dad's girlfriend had the fake smile on saying it was nice to see us. As soon as we walked in her uncle got up and left the room and went downstairs in the basement until it was time to eat. I think he was one of the last people to get to the table also. Once again her grandma was the only person that really spoke to us at all. The uncle gets up before everyone else, I don't even think he was done eating, and left the room again to go outside and throw a baseball around with his kid. Her own father never even said a word to her the whole time we were there. The tension was so thick in the air you could have cut it with a knife.

Her mom's family wasn't that bad in comparison, at least they spoke to us and made us feel welcomed. I stayed until Sunday so we would have as much time together as possible before she had to go back to work. She took me through the old town part of Fredericksburg and I went in a few shops. Of course I found the ones that were selling civil war relics and she got me a few small things to add to my collection. She showed me where she grew up and different places around town, and even took me out to eat at outback. The only bad part of the trip is that her jeep started having transmission issues, which worries us both. Right now we may not get to see each other for a while since her finances are pretty stretched because of that. We're not sure how much it may end up costing to fix. As it stands either a fairly quick and simple $600 fix will do it, and if not it's $2500 to overhaul the transmission and she may just try to trade it in for something else. Only time will tell, I suppose.

I forgot to write about how my doctors appointment went on the 16th. Yes, I finally got another one at the clinic. The person I saw was actually someone who had been there before anyway, but aside from her and the guy that runs the TG clinic everyone else was different. I found out that the new doctor is starting in December, and that they're actually going to try to improve things with the care we get. So it all seems to be working out well so far. Everything checked out normal for me, so I don't go back until February.

Aside from a few issues going on I think things are doing fairly well. I'm hoping they're issues that can be resolved quickly and without too much expense. Anyway, that's about all for now.

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Transgender Day of Remembrance

It's that time again it seems. Sadly there are still new names to add to the list of transgendered people who have been murdered in the past year. I wasn't able to attend any formal services for the day of remembrance today due to prior engagements and financial issues, but if nothing else I feel like I need to write something on here. I don't know what exactly to say, but never forget those who have been taken from us by hate. It hits home especially hard for me this year, I was in the area near Philadelphia earlier today only to learn after I got home that a trans woman, like me, had been murdered there just last month. I'll be honest, it creeped me out to know I was that close by to one so recent. There was one in North Carolina too, even closer to where I live than Philly. It does worry me at times, but I will never live my life around the fear that I will be attacked for being trans. I am who I am, the same as any of those who were killed. Rest in peace brothers and sisters, you will not be forgotten so long as there is still breath in my body.

Friday, November 12, 2010

I'm Taken

Things have been busy as hell around here lately. I finally have the time and inspiration to sit down and write something on here. Things are still going pretty well, dare I say down right great. As of Halloween Stef and I are officially dating, so I finally found someone. She treats me way better than Megan ever did, to say the least. I sold that one painting for 80 bucks and am currently working on a few more things that I hope to sell too. There really is that much going on that's worth writing about. All it is these days is running around on errands with my aunts and trying to get a little time to work on my art.

I spent the last few weekends with Stef, and had an amazingly awesome time too. We decided to skip a couple of weeks for sake of money and stuff, and have me come up there and spend 4 days with her for Thanksgiving so I can meet her family. Things with us are going well so far, I've got no complaints. Honestly I think she's the best thing to happen to me in a long time. She treats me very good, and isn't a psychopath like the last one. I like having a girlfriend that's trans too, there's just something about being with someone else that's going through the same things I am that's comforting in a way. I don't know where things will go with us, but I love her, so I'm willing to find out.