It's my hope to post entries here about my life and experiences as a trans-woman who also happens to have bipolar disorder. This is my way of making my voice be heard, and bringing attention to the issues that myself and others like me, face every day.

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Doing Well

Things have been pretty busy around here lately. I sold 2 paintings last Monday instead of just the one that I was planning on. He had showed interest in my abstract expressionism experiment, so I threw that one in for 30 bucks more.I also found out that one of my 80 dollar paintings sold too. I'm probably going to go get paid for that sometime within the next week or so, I just have to wait for the guy that's buying it to get the money. I'm happy to see my stuff selling, it makes me think that I just might make a career of this yet. They also brought up the idea of redesigning their shop sign. I don't have any real experience in that area, which I told them, but I said if they can come up with an idea I'll see what I can do with it.

My friend Stef cam to see me again last weekend. I think I can say we had our first official date. It wasn't anything too special, she wanted to check out this little sex shop place nearby. We got a few things, but that's all I'm saying about that part. After that we went out to dinner again, which was great. We had a pretty good time at Kings Dominion Saturday too, aside from a few stares people threw our way. She won me a big skelanimal kitty at one of the game booths. She got me on a couple of roller coasters and I held on to her in the haunted house thingys we went in too. We're happy together, so I hope something good comes from it. Life isn't perfect, but it's finally starting to get better.

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Recent Events

I haven't posted for a while, so I thought I would give some updates on things. Last weekend was amazingly great. I had one of my trans friends come and stay the weekend with me, and we got very close pretty fast considering it was the first time we had met in person. I'm not giving all the juicy details, but lets just say we may end up dating sometime in the near future. We just mostly cuddled and watched tv, but we did do a little shopping. She bought me heels and took me out to dinner, and I showed her this little shop nearby that I like going to. We didn't do a lot, but we enjoyed just being with each other a lot. She's coming again next weekend and going with me and my aunts to the Halloween thingy they do at Kings Dominion. We're both looking forward to seeing each other again. I'm not sure where things will take us, but I guess we'll find out in time.

On another note, I've officially sold my first painting to someone that's not a family member! The guy that did my tattoo is buying the small one I did on paper earlier this year about Megan. I just asked for 20 bucks and he's willing to pay that. Not bad for something I did on a sheet of printer paper about a back stabbing ex. On top of that, he wants me to bring some of my bigger pieces with me on Monday when I see him again, and he's going to pick out two to carry in the shop for sale. I get to name my own price and he's going to add to that to get his cut. So I'm guaranteed to get my price on each one, and he's only adding enough to it to get 15%. He's interested in buying my big phoenix painting himself if it doesn't sell very quickly, and he also wants to hang the one he's already buying from me in his work space at the shop. So that's great publicity for me if anyone comes in and asks about it.

I'm hoping this may get me somewhere with my art. I've slacked off on it lately, but I'm going to have to start painting again soon. I'll admit I got a little depressed that I couldn't sell much, but this is boosting my confidence a bit. I need to get into some more abstract stuff seeing as it's rather popular with the guys at the shop. I told him I do commission work too, so maybe he'll throw some ideas my way at some point. It's definitely a start, I've got a fan of my work that's buying from me, so I've got no complaints.

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Finally Got Some Answers

I finally got a call back from the clinic yesterday morning. The guy I left the message with is apparently also leaving, at least according to the woman that called me. I asked if I needed to call them to make a new appointment or if they would call me, and I also asked about if my scripts are still good or not. She told me they would call me up by the end of October and that my scripts are still good. She also said that they were in the process of hiring a new doctor, so it worries me a little if they don't have anyone new lined up yet. I have a feeling some shit went down, otherwise I would expect a doctor to give more than a few days notice of leaving. The woman I talked to also seemed very annoyed that I was even calling, and kept asking if I read the letter that it explained everything.

I said that I had, but I really wanted to lay into her about it. I didn't, but it was tempting. Excuse me for being a little confused by a letter I suddenly get 5 days before I'm supposed to see my doctor saying that she's gone now and I'm on my own until they find another one. It's not like I saw it coming, not to mention the letter was slightly vague on a few things that I wanted to clarify. It seems like they don't plan on screwing us over, but I can't help but worry. Lately it seems as though when shit goes down, trans people are the ones screwed the worst by it. All I can do is wait and hope for the best.

Oh yeah, I got another tattoo over the weekend that I hadn't thought to mention until now.

Yes, it's on my wrist! :P

Sunday, October 3, 2010

Losing My Doctor

So yeah, I got letter on Thursday from the free clinic informing me that my doctor is leaving to "persue other interests". That all TG clinics for the month of October would be canceled. My appointment was supposed to be next Tuesday on the 5th, so I found this out less than a week before I was supposed to see her again. They say clinics will resume in November with someone new, who, I have no clue. All I know at this point is what the letter tells me. I called Friday and left a message with the guy in charge of making appointments to find out what the hell I need to do about making a new appointment. The letter made it sound like they would contact me about it, but I want to hear someone in charge say that, and find out if my scripts are still good to go or not. I'm pretty worried at this point to be honest. I'm sure they're not just going to leave me out in the cold, so to speak, but I'm going to try to stay in touch with someone that knows what's going on until I know when I'm coming back. What really sucks is that I was trying to get a friend of mine into the program and then this came up.

It sounds like they have things under control and figured out at the clinic, so I'm going to call again and see if I can get any extra info out of them and just hope for the best. If my scripts are still good I've got 6 months worth of them easily thanks to my script hording. Apparently my fears were not unfounded seeing as whats going down right now. All I can say is I hope everything resolves itself soon, and in a good way for me.