It's my hope to post entries here about my life and experiences as a trans-woman who also happens to have bipolar disorder. This is my way of making my voice be heard, and bringing attention to the issues that myself and others like me, face every day.

Saturday, March 20, 2010

Good Times

Well, I've had a very interesting week so far. I went and stayed with Cassidy Wednesday night since other things I had planned got cancelled. It was pretty fun, she stole an 8 gig memory card for my camera. Now I can get over 1500 pictures on one card. I also found out that she has a pretty good 10 mega pixel DSLR camera too, the same brand as my consumer grade of the same resolution. We decided to do a shoot that night, but got a little stoned and drank a bit before then. Needless to say it left a bit to be desired. The lighting wasn't that great, but amazingly I managed to get enough shots for a full set that weren't completely screwed up. I loved using the camera too, since it was also a fujifilm it made figuring out the display easy. I also finally figured out suicide girls editing guidelines today. I've been stressing all week over trying to make sure I know what exactly they're asking for. I'm pretty confident that I understand it now though. To bitch about previous subjects, apparently Megan is smoking pot and considering doing porn to try to impress this girl that she likes. Apparently she's the only one doing any real flirting and this girl really isn't that interested. To top that off she lied straight to me the other night when I said I knew that was why she's been depressed lately. I talk to her fucking ex that's still living in the same room as her, still sleeping in the same bed, and still fucking her. She acts like I haven't got a clue in hell as to what's going on apparently. She's lying to this other girl and pretending to be someone she's not, while also leading her ex on and lying to me. I don't want to date that kind of person. If she wants to become a pot head and drift into tranny porn obscurity be my guest. I'm not putting my life on hold any longer for her. I have a chance to kick start my dream career, so in a way Megan leaving me has helped me out. I'm not moving away up there like she wanted me to, so I'm still here near my friend who wants me to do this with her. She helps me I help her, we both stand to make a profit from working with the other. I get my name out there as a photographer, she gets her name and face out there as a model, we both win. Megan may think sitting in front of a camera and having an orgasm is going to earn her all the money she needs. I'm the person behind the camera with the girls coming to me and stripping for me to take the pictures, and for a reputable, yet tasteful, site that many people know of. Who do you think has the better job? I just had another friend of mine yesterday say they're interested in doing pictures for suicide girls and I offered to do her pictures. Luckily she's a good friend and trusts me with doing it, so who knows, I may have a second person to work with and make double my money. I promised Cassidy that I'd be her main photographer though, but luckily her and my other friend know each other, so it works out. I'm nervous but excited at the same time, I just hope I have what it takes to do this well enough to be accepted. I guess I'll find out, and have plenty of fun in the process. Thank you karma.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

hi, your a joke. bye.