It's my hope to post entries here about my life and experiences as a trans-woman who also happens to have bipolar disorder. This is my way of making my voice be heard, and bringing attention to the issues that myself and others like me, face every day.

Friday, October 30, 2009


I finally got my tattoo tonight! Here's some shots of it.

Done by Devin at Liquid Metal Tattoo in Shacklefords VA. Yes, that is a plastic sandwich bag taped over it. He ran out of plastic wrap on me.

The best I could take myself holding the camera behind my back and lining it up in a mirror, I'm getting someone else to take a better shot for me later. It looks way better in person when I'm not turning in an awkward position. The pictures don't do it justice.

This was the original design I made. It came out a bit different than this, but I still love it. I think what he did gave it a nice tribal look.

I let the shop apprentice do it, so it ran me 100 even, but it was well worth it. My friends were trying to scare me about the pain before the guy started, and when he did I asked if that was it? I think I surprised them with that, it didn't really seem that bad to me for the most part, other than when he went over my spine. I flinched twice during the hour and a half it took to get it, at the top of the pentacle and the top corner of the crescent on the right. I was enjoying the conversation I was having with the people who worked there so much I wished it had taken longer. I pretty much spilled everything about my religion, past history with depression and suicide, and that I'm TG. They really seemed to show me a lot of respect for being up front and honest about that stuff. They were curious about it all, not really critical of me at all, even said they thought I was brave for transitioning and wanting to go the whole way with it. They said I was a lot of firsts for them, so I know I made an impression on them also. I'm glad I decided to go there, it was great meeting people that open minded within walking distance of where I live. With any hope I may get more tattoos in the future, I guess time will tell.

Friday, October 23, 2009

Hate Crimes Bill Passes!

I can't believe it! I got this in an email earlier today.

"(October 22, 2009, Washington, DC) In an historic move, the United States Senate, by a vote of 68 to 29, joined the House of Representatives in passing The Matthew Shepard and James Byrd, Jr. Hate Crimes Prevention Act, which will be the first federal law to include gender identity and transgender people. Once signed by the President, this law will add sexual orientation, gender identity, gender and disability to the categories included in existing federal hate crimes law and will allow local governments who are unable or unwilling to address hate crimes to receive assistance from the federal government. President Obama has indicated that he will sign the bill into law. "Transgender people have been waiting so many years for assistance from the federal government in addressing the rampant and disproportional violence that we face," noted Mara Keisling, Executive Director of the National Center for Transgender Equality. "Today we move one step closer to our goal of ending violence motivated by hatred. Everyone in America deserves to live free of fear and of violence. We know that the dedicated leadership and hard work of Senator Kennedy and Representative Conyers and many other legislators made the passage of this bill possible. Words can't really express our gratitude for their commitment to equality for all people."In the past, federal law has only mentioned gender identity in a negative context, such as explicitly excluding transgender people from the Americans with Disabilities Act. The passage of the hate crimes bill marks a significant turning point from the days in which the federal government contributed to the oppression of transgender people to today when federal law takes action to protect our lives. The Matthew Shepard and James Byrd, Jr. Hate Crimes Prevention Act will have a number of positive impacts. First, it will help educate law enforcement about the frequent hate violence against transgender people and the need to prevent and appropriately address it. Second, it will help provide federal expertise and resources when it is needed to overcome a lack of resources or the willful inaction on the part of local and/or state law enforcement. Third, it will help educate the public that violence against anyone is unacceptable and illegal. Transgender people continue to be disproportionately targeted for bias motivated violence. Thirteen states and Washington, DC have laws which include transgender people in state hate crimes laws."

Finally, everything the LGBT community has been fighting for, for so long, is begining to pay off. Keep you fingers crossed for the employment non discrimination bill that's coming up for vote soon also. It includes the same thing as the hate crimes bill, and Obama stated that he will sign it if it passes. We've had a major victory today, hope is definitely not lost yet.


Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Another Good Day

Things didn't go quite as expected today, but they went really well anyway. My friend and I went by the tattoo shop before my doctors appointment and talked to them about both of us getting one. She decided that she wanted one, so we set up an appointment to come back in 2 weeks on the 29th and get them at the same time. There wasn't enough time for me to get it before my appointment today, so it all worked out pretty well. I was hoping I'd have a friend there anyway, since it's my first tattoo. It makes me a little more comfortable to have someone there I already know anyway. So I'm still getting it, I just have to wait a little while. It took forever before the doctor got to me at the clinic, but I did get a free flue shot. I guess I got lucky that I go to a free clinic and they're offering flu shots to all patients. I thought it was better than nothing, especially since I didn't even have to pay for it. That's really about all that happened today, but I'm happy with how things went. It seems like things are taking a turn for the better, I just hope it lasts a while longer. At least I have something to look forward to soon.

Monday, October 12, 2009

Good Luck

There hasn't been a lot going on lately to write about for a while, but I really do need to update this more often. Anyway, getting back on topic, I had a bit of good luck today. My phone started giving me problems Friday afternoon, I got a text, opened it to look, and the screen was blank. I could only see what I was doing half the time when it decided to work, and only if I opened the phone halfway. I took it to a Verizon store nearby Saturday and they couldn't help me, aside from telling me to go to try the store in Williamsburg, and that it was probably a software issue. They did say that it should be replaced for free since I had the phone for less than a year and it was still under warranty. So today I went by there after picking up my meds at Walgreen's, and managed to get there right as they opened. I got taken right away, and they swapped my phone for a new identical one, and transferred all my contacts and pictures to the new one. It took all of 15 minutes and I was out of there. I swear that's the easiest time I've ever had dealing with Verizon. I was worried they would give me some kind of bullshit about it being my fault the phone was messed up, but luckily it couldn't have gone better. I went by McDonald's on the way home and picked up a wrap to eat when I got home, and found out they gave me a piece of chicken on it twice the size of what's normally on there. I know it was kind of insignificant, but it really kind of made my day in a way. Everything went as planned, and I can even say better than planned today. I don't experience that too often, so that's why it made me happy today. I also stuck a 4 leaf clover in my coat pocket before I left that I have pressed between some clear tape, I guess it came in handy. I have an appointment at my clinic tomorrow, and I'm hoping to possibly get a tattoo before I head to that. I found some extra money I had hidden from myself, so I'm treating myself to something I've been wanting for a couple of years now. I can only hope tomorrow goes as well as today did, I'll be sure to write about it when I get back. Hopefully I'll have some pictures to show if I'm able to get the tattoo.