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It's my hope to post entries here about my life and experiences as a trans-woman who also happens to have bipolar disorder. This is my way of making my voice be heard, and bringing attention to the issues that myself and others like me, face every day.

Saturday, May 24, 2008

Nothing New

There really isn't that much to talk about right now. Oh, wait, I almost forgot something. Richard is taking me to a gothic prom on Tuesday. I can't wait, my friend helped me get a dress, and I've been working on putting together a good outfit. He's picking me up on Sunday and I'm hoping I'll get to stay the rest of the week. Everything is going pretty well for the time being, I just hope it stays that way.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Recent Happenings

Well, I've got a few updates to talk about. I spent a few days with Richard last week, and got home Friday. Then last Saturday I went with my mom to see my aunt and grandpa for mother's day. That went very well actually. It was the first time anyone on that side of the family had ever seen me dressed as a girl. My aunt was more than accepting of things. She pulled me aside when I got there, and asked me to promise her that I wouldn't be ashamed of anything while I was there. She was very supportive. One of the first things she asked me when I got there was what name I'm going by now. I told her, and she used it for me the whole day. You wouldn't believe how great it feels to have a family member accept me to that level. She helped me work on my mom about things too. I've finally convinced her to come in to therapy with me sometime, so we can try to work out the issues she's having over me. Hopefully things will go well with that. I really want my mom to accept me as her daughter, that would mean the world to me. My brother already accepts me like I am too. Even he called me by the name I want, and referred to me as a girl. So, things seem to be finally getting better with my family, at least that side of it. My dad's side I can't really say too much for, yet. I've also started going back and reading some if my old journal entries. I really feel like I'm reading something that someone else wrote. I've changed so much since then, and it's obvious from reading what I wrote then, and what I've wrote recently. I realize now just how hard I was on my former best friend a few years ago. He started talking to my ex girlfriend while I was trying to get back with her again, and I went off and acted like he was trying to be with her. Reading some of the things I wrote about him now, really makes me feel bad for how I treated him. So, I've decided to look him up online and apologize for things. It's been weighing on my conscience since last night, and I need to do it. That's one part of my past I'm yet to make peace with, and I'll get no peace until I try. So, I guess, I'm spending tonight trying to do that. Well, that's about everything I have to write about for now. I'll write about how things go with him later.

Thursday, May 8, 2008

At Richard's House

Well, as the title say's I'm at Richard's house (the boyfriend). I thought I would make an entry while I'm at here at 2 in the morning, with nothing to do at the moment. I got to go with him to his psychologist today. I didn't know that was going to happen until I got here and found out he had an appointment to go to. Things went well with that though, he seemed nice, and even wished us good luck together. Other than that, things haven't been happening too fast. We just rode around today while he tried to sell some books, and went to the mall for a little while. I should be home by Saturday though. I have to be back by then so I can go see my aunt with my mom for mothers day. She's my favorite aunt, so I definately don't want to miss out on seeing her again. But, I'm going to cut this a bit short since I'm kind of tired at the moment.